The first thing I saw of her were the scars on her arms. Thin and sickly pink they criss-crossed her arms like the lines on a map.
She tried so hard to explain the fascination of cutting her own pale flesh, causing the red scars over her china-white skin. I never understood. And the more she explained the more alien the words were to me.
As it was when she spoke I tended not to hear the words, but would instead focus on her lips mouthing senseless forms, every word became sensual that way, but try as I did, she never had any interest in me. Not that kind of interest anyway.
She had drunk wine and peach schnapps one night, and she stood on the bank of the river, moonlight flickering like candles on the water’s ripples when she said;
“I want to be dust, caught in the wind. I want to be light that seeps through the cracks in curtains and lights up the swirls of the smoke from an old man’s cigarette. I want to be bereft of meaning and understanding. I want to be music. I want to be F Sharp.”
She stepped into the water, which lapped up at her cotton dress, darkening the fabric as it crept up her leg, and then over her thigh.
I had had wine too. And Cherry schnapps, and the best I could do was watch her go, fascinated.
It rose over her stomach, and over her breasts, before touching her china-white cheeks, and with further steps it engulfed her completely. I never saw her again, and I assumed she had drowned.
But she was drowning long before the water ever touched her cheeks.
All art strives to be music
The first thing that I saw of it were the scars on it arms. Thin and morbid rose they intersected its arms like the lines on a chart.
It tested so hard to explain the fascination of cutting its own pale flesh, causing the red scars above its skin of porcelain white. I never included/understood. And more it explained more foreigner than the words were with me. Because it was when it spoke me tended not to hear the words, but would concentrate in the place on its lips saying the forms senseless, each word became sensual that manner, but the test as I made it it ever had any interest in me. Not this kind of interest in any event.
It had drunk schnapps of wine and fishing one harms, and it was held on the bank of the river, moonlight twinkling like candles on the undulation of water when it said;
“I want to be the dust, caught in the wind. I want to be a light which infiltrates by the cracks in curtains and lights to the top the movements of smoke of old equips the cigarette. I want to be private significance and comprehension. I want to be music. I want to be sharp of F.”
It took a step in the water, which rolled up to the top with its dress of cotton, darkening fabric while it crawled to the top of its leg, and then above its thigh.
I had taken the wine too. And cherry schnapps, and the best than I could make were to observe it go, fascinated.
It rose above its stomach, and above its centres, before touching its white porcelain cheeks, and with other stages it absorbed it completely. I never re-examined it, and I supposed that it had drowned.
But it drowned a long time before water ever touched its cheeks.
All the art is strained to be music.
The first thing, which was I of it the scars on it saw, arms. Thin and diseased rose, which they cut them, arms like the lines on a diagram.
It examined so strongly to explain around the fascination of the cut of its own slat meat and caused the red scars over its skin of porcelain white. I never included/understood.
And more explained it more foreigner, than the words with me were. Because it, when it spoke me, bent, not to hear the words but it would concentrate in the place on its lips was which said the forms, which senseless are, each word became sensual that way, but the test, since I formed it had at all each possible interest in me. Not this kind of the interest in any case.
It had drunk schnapps the wine and fish one damages, and it on the bank of the river, moonlight twin-sound held like candles on the oscillation of the water, when it said;
“I would like to be the dust, gotten caught in the wind. I would like to be a light, which seeps by the jumps in the curtains and lights to the top side the cigarette equips the movements of the smoke of old. I would like to be private meaning and seizing. I would like to be music. I would like to be sharp of F.”
It undertook a step in the water, which rolled up to the top side with its dress of cotton and then over its thigh colluded fabrics, while it crept to the top side of its leg.
I had also taken the wine. And Kirscheschnapps and the best as if I could form should it observing go, fascinated.
It rose over its stomach, and over its in the middle, before affecting its white porcelain cheeks and with other stages, it sucked it completely up. I never tested it and I assumed that it had drowned.
But it drowned a long time, before water affected at all its cheeks.
All the art filters to be music.
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It had drunk schnapps the wine and the fish one damages and it on the series of the river, held gemellare-sound of moonlight like the candles on the oscillation of the water, when it has said;
“I would want to be the powder, obtained interfered in the wind. I would want to be a light, than it is filtered from knows to you in stretches and the lights to the advanced side the cigarette equips the movements of the smoke of old. I would want to be meant and arpeggio reserves you. I would want to be music. I would want to be sharp of the F.”
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But it had drowned a much time before that water influenced to all the relative guanine.
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The wine had drunk schnapps and the fish one damages and it in the series of the river, gemellare-sound arrested of moonlight as the candles in the oscillation of the water, when it said;
“I would want to be the dust, gotten intervened with the wind. I would want to be a light, of that he is filtered of knows to it in the stretchings and the lights to the advanced side the cigarette equip the movements of the tobacco of old. I would want to be meant and the arpeggio one reserves it. I would want to be music. I would want to be sharp of the F.”
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The wine had drunk schnapps and the fish one damages and he in the series of the river, gemellare-sound arrested of clear of moon as the candles in the oscillation of the water, when it said;
“It would wish to be the dust, obtained taken part with the wind. It would wish to be a light, of which they filter it of knows to him in stretchings and the lights alongside advanced the cigarette equip the movements of the tobacco as an older person. It would wish to be meant and arpeggio one it reserve. It would wish to be music. It would wish to be maintained of F.”
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But it drowned much stay, before this influenced water all the relative of the guanine.
Copyright © 2003 by Toby Wallis
